We all have our own specific and important role to play in this collective awakening. This may involve some of the deepest pain, loss, displacement, discomfort, confusion, grief etc that you have ever personally experienced. Know that this is because it is only partially personal, and more actually collective. What you do for your own healing process, you do for all of us. We each take a bit of the burden, and transform it together, piece by PEACE.
THANK YOU for declining anesthesia, for feeling the pain, and for choosing to be AWAKE for the soul surgery of humanity and beyond.
Always, the most extreme and challenging situations in our lives prove to be the deepest blessings and teachings. It is easy to be in a state of unconditional love and compassion when those energies are reflected around us. But when we are confronted with aggression, fear, hatred, misunderstanding, and betrayal from other people or energies around us, this is the real test and fortification of our love. Can we stay centered in our truth and hold a deep prayer for the healing of the other, instead of succumbing to the illusion of the pain and fear and feeding it?
The only reason these energies of the dark show up in our lives is to reflect the places that are misaligned in ourselves, so that we may bring more light, more love. They come to us because they are suffering, and subconsciously they know our light can set them free.
In inviting real Christ consciousness into our lives and the into collective, I chose to turn the other cheek to those who attack me. I let my false ego rest and humble myself into trust and compassion for the suffering.
I find myself flattered and honored to be receiving such a deep challenge and wonderful opportunity to strengthen the Christ light within me, and show up that much brighter and stronger as an example for others. I know that my work impacts the collective, because we are one.
With this attitude, there is a conscious lucidity of the lessons and blessings that even the most difficult tests are bringing me. In the light of this, all I can be left with is GRATITUDE. And a deeper, more resounding TRUST in the path and the Divine.
So to my enemies, to those who hurt me, who betray me, who attack me: I say THANK YOU, so much, for activating my light and forging my strength in the flames of disillusion.
I am awake, Lucid in this initiation, and willing to show up for the process, for the benefit of all beings everywhere.
Thank you, I Love you, I forgive you, Please forgive me
I am being tested on how well I can release my attachments and need for control to the most extreme limits right now, in every aspect of my life. The overwhelming pain and disappointment I feel in my heart is such an opportunity to surrender. It is something sacred.
The sacred can be defined as something that you cannot gain, only receive. Meaning you cannot make it be there when it's not, and you cannot make it go away when it is. Love is the essence of sacred.
And just as sacred is Heartbreak: Love unbound by an object. The moment when you realize everything you thought was so perfect and what you wanted is gone, is not what it seemed: That is Heartbreak.
That is the pure power of the human experience. That is sacred...
I feel very called to share a deep and extremely crucial integration of understanding that has resulted in a deep change in my life. This is a vulnerable and humbling expression of my process on my path to deeper truth and integrity. As many of you may know, I have been a "smoker" of tobacco on and off for many years. Due to my dedication to self mastery, reflections from the ones I love, and the wisdom of the grandmother vine medicine, I am proud to say I have come into a place of right relation with the Tobacco plant spirit.
In my journeys to the deep levels of my subconscious self, I have discovered that I have been holding a deep guilt, and fear of death around smoking. Addiction to nicotine and alcohol have run through my ancestry for generations, taking the lives of many of my relatives... Running all the way down to this current generation, manifesting in my behavior and the habits and behavior of my siblings. I have been given the clear message that this current generation is clearing the karma of our ancestors and history that has come before us, so we may move into the new paradigm free of any karmic burdens or suffering. Knowing this information, it has become clear to me that a huge piece of my personal ancestral clearing is to consciously cut this cycle of addiction and make peace and new relation to the sacred tobacco plant.
In addition, as I have been stepping into my full power and role as a healer, facilitator of ceremony, performer, and a public figure, I have had to bring every single aspect of my life into alignment...with no room for exceptions, So that I may show up as a clear channel and pristine example as a leader. If I cannot focus my energy and discipline to do something that is hard, but for my highest good, how can I show up as an leader with integrity? The only pure way to lead is to lead by example... Refinement is hard, but the work is worth it, as we show up for ourselves to be better, clearer human beings to the best of our ability.
But perhaps the deepest teaching that has inspired this shift in me is the connection to the spirit and story of Grandfather Tobacco. Tobacco is considered the most holy Sacrament among the original North American People. It is the bridge to the spirit world, the carrier of the prayers and intentions of the people to the spirits, to be heard and received. It is the connector of the people to the land, to the plants, and serves as emissary and protector. When this truth is seen, it is of no surprise that this world is laden with such sickness and disease. The majority of people who use tobacco do so in a very unconscious way, when they are worried or stressed out. So literally, all those worries and ill thoughts are blown into the spirit world as prayers, prayers for exactly what we don't want. Then we see it manifest in every inharmonious way in our world...
The most sacred sacrament of this land has been industrialized and poisoned and warped in such a deep way, and the consequences are clear...
The spirit of Tobacco has made it clear to me: he is a powerful ally, servant, and guide. And he demands RESPECT.
He commands balance...clarity....INTENTION.
And so, from here on out, I will lead by example. I will offer my tobacco to the earth...I will use this sacrament for prayer and setting intention and purification...In balance, and moderation, and reverence. When I see the issue from this perspective, the path is simple...I have no choice but to come into alignment...and so, the shift is simple. I would like to inspire others who may be out of balance with tobacco that it can be this simple!
Written: April 24, 2014
Gracias por los espíritus de las plantas sagradas...
Many humans may have the belief that our race is the most sophisticated, superior race on this planet. In actuality, we are infants compared to the advanced intelligence and presence of the plant kingdom. The plants are our elders. They have been holding it down on this planet for as long as it dates back. They are so advanced that all they need to survive is water and sunlight, evolved past the necessity to consume or eat matter. They lovingly and patiently support us infantile humans... providing oxygen, food, building materials, shelter, clothing, fuel, medicine, and their infinite and deep wisdom and teachings, if we so choose. They are our greatest teachers, and know us better than even we know ourselves. They are here to offer us a vast new world of possibility and perspective, more magical and limitless than we could ever imagine...all we need do is surrender to their magic, and watch our lives transform before our eyes...
Written: Sept 5, 2013
As we move through these times of great struggle and change, we are reminded of the work at hand. This is the dark before the dawn...We are entering the birth canal... Experiencing labor pains, moving through a deep initiation of the soul. Now is the time to confront our shadows, integrate the darkness, and step into the light. Know that you are Not alone...we are collectively shedding the skin of fear consciousness, duality, and separation. This may seem like the hardest thing we have ever had to do, because it is... But this is a rite of passage, and the rewards are beyond anything that we can imagine. Remember to Breathe...Show up and do your work...Embrace the pain, welcome it, for it is the cracking open of the shell of understanding. We are evolving...Release, allow, be as the water, and flow through this stream with grace and power. YOU are so powerful, your work is so crucial, and now is the time to burn in the fire, be forged in the flame, and rise from the ashes with glowing, radiant light! Thank you Family...so much trust, so much gratitude for this life and all its beautiful and abundant gifts and lessons. Now is the time, For us to SHINE...
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